pork chop and lamb chop

pay pay pay

3roomflat — Thu, 28 May 2009 09:06:02 +0000

hello lamb chop and baby ashlyn!!

while daddy is at home, he got guai guai try to work out a better future for all of us leh..

by august we can re finance our house and hopefully can pay off a lump sum and remain with 400k and a 20 year loan, it will be better if we can cut it short to 15 years! but i scared it will be too tough too furious for us.. but i am so excited that we are making progress on our house! cant wait to tell u everything!! and then september ashlyn coming out!! so exciting u know!

foolsparadise — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:09:43 +0000

Darling, Sometimes the going may be tough. At times we are angry with each other. At times we feel like giving up. But no matter what, we just have to bear in mind that we love each other.

Conflicts will naturally arise in a relationship. Especially so if it isn’t communicated earlier to each other. There are many times when you have misunderstood me and I have misunderstood you. And I like it when you tell me honestly how you feel though it may not always be what I want to hear.

This is a difficult period for me. I have to grasp with the changes my body is going through, top that up with the stress in school, it’s definitely making me burst at my seams.

I am sorry if there are times when I am unreasonable. But I love you.

I am sorry if there are times when I blow my top at you and throw tantrums at you. But I love you.

I am sorry if there are times when I seem not to understand you. But I love you.

All I look forward to everyday now is your big hugs and kisses.

And from that, I know that I love you. Lots.

Hello from Baby

foolsparadise — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 14:02:39 +0000

I know that if the news came a wee bit later into the year, or perhaps a year later, it’ll definitely be welcomed news. I could imagine both of us gleaming when we announce the new life in my tummy.

But as things would be, it was a New Year’s gift to us.

To be honest, I really was undecided as to whether to keep the baby. And it really crossed my mind to only give birth when I’m ready to be a mother.

However, on hindsight, that’s really selfish thought on my part. After all, we are talking about a life. The fruit of our love.

Dear dear, I do have my concerns as well. Valid concerns – who will care for the baby when it’s born? will we have enough to support it till it’s old enough to fend for itself? are we ready to give up our carefree time to look after a wailing baby everyday?

The little one is growing in me everyday. And I’m starting to feel for it. It’s making me nauseous and I’m starting to feel pregnant! Woohoo!

You know i’ve read scary stories about how pregnant mothers would become ugly – acne over their faces, noses growing fatter and bigger, of course putting on weight and not withdrawing it back… and i’m scared. I’m really scared.

Will you still love me if I have pimples all over my face, and my nose spreads bigger and flatter, and I will never be as fit as before?

And suddenly, I know, I am ready to nurture this little one in my stomach, and to give birth to it after 9 months. I am ready to bring this little one up in this world. I can’t wait to see his/her first smile and how he/she will suckle on my nipple for milk.

But most importantly, I’ll need you to be around me during this time. I know there are times when you’ll be busy. That you will not be with me, but I know that you’ll love us equally the same, if not more.

Wait, on condition that you’ll love the little one, whether it’s a boy or girl, equally the same. You will not be biased and show favouritism.

And how about Aidan for a boy and Ashlyn for a Girl? Hehe…

We gotta get ready for the little one… are you ready?

sorry dd

3roomflat — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 07:41:00 +0000

Sorry dd.. because of my work i couldnt pei u go for the first check up.. and maybe because of work, i would not be able to pei u go for ur second check up.. i feel so so so so bad.. i am such a bad hubby.. bad daddy also.. sorry dd.. thats all i can say for now.. but i promise i will teng u more when i see u k? love u lots darling..

The Eight Happy days Meme

foolsparadise — Sun, 28 Dec 2008 15:46:27 +0000

To end the year with a bang and to start the new year on an even higher note, I just thought that I’d do this meme which I came across online.

For eight consecutive days, you have to post something that made you happy that day.

Waking up to Hubby to which he roused to plant a kiss on my cheeks.
Sending Hubby to work.
Talking to mum about everything.
Meeting Bee and WL.
Seeing that WL is feeling much better.
Having Hubby messaged me from work several times to tell me he missed me.
Having a wonderful mum who cares so much about me.
Coming back to my own home despite being alone at home.

Doing this meme makes me feel very contented. I know I haven’t been giving thanks to the Big Guy above, but deep down in my heart, I really thank Him for giving me this very day.

And of course, I can’t help but feel lucky and so blessed to have Hubby in my life as he is the source of my contentment and happiness.

Happy Anniversary Pork Chop

foolsparadise — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 06:31:43 +0000

Remember the first flush of love that drew us powerfully together?
It is what feeds the unassailable bond that makes our marriage so secure.
Remember all the qualities about each other we found so endearing?
They are still there, and new qualities are springing out that create sweet surprises for each other.

Remember how we used to think if this love would last forever?
Our love has grown and strengthened into deeper affection and admiration.

On this first anniversary, I realise that I love you more than ever.
And I would like to thank you for everything you’ve done for me.
For overlooking my faults and being thoughtful of my feelings. For making me laugh with your magical touch when I’m down in the dumps. For standing behind me in all that I do. For coming home to me after work everyday and giving me that big ‘I’m home’ hug.
Happy Anniversary dear!

love u

3roomflat — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 03:36:30 +0000

darling,

just want to let u know.. i am so sorry that everything went to this.. and i want u to know that i love u no matter what happen.. so pls dun kick me out of ur life k?

I give up

foolsparadise — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 11:29:28 +0000

For Christ’s Sake!!

It’s going to be MY wedding!!!! Why can’t I do things the way I want it to be done? Why do you have to be so negative about everything? So what if you are my mother?!?!?!?!?!

First you want Dinner because you scared people will say. Then next you want the traditional custom thingy coz you scared people will say.

Next the invitation card, you also scared people will say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK LAH! it’s my wedding leh!

Can i have it done the way i want it to be done?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?

Everybody doesn’t understand that I want my wedding to be kept to the bare minimum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want it to be simple!!

Gotta invite so many guests lah. Then now scared not enough seats for them!

I’m going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why can’t I just have a peaceful wedding?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!!?!?

Something that I would call my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What’s with everybody!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I am beginning to dread this wedding. Believe me. Beginning to hate it.

FORGET IT! I’m not going to invite any of my colleagues, nor any of my friends already!!!!!!!!

It’ll just be their wedding. The way all of them want it to be. Except for myself.

I’ll just wash my hands off everything from now on. I have already given up.

After all, what’s else when I have to do everything according to everyone?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

What’s wrong with my mother? What’s wrong with my BF?

It was agreed initially that guests be kept minimum! then now i have over 200 guests? Fine, I keep quiet. I will then sacrifice! No colleagues. No friends. Nothing. They can invite who they want. Their colleagues whom I don’t even know. Their friends whom I don’t even know. Go invite everybody.

All i need is just 7 seats for my friends. And make sure they have SEATS to eat on that day! Because I’ve already given up ALL!!!

in our lovely home

3roomflat — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 14:04:53 +0000

posting in our lovely sofa!

An emo post

foolsparadise — Fri, 29 Aug 2008 10:49:21 +0000

I am a little sad right now. Oh perhaps the word ‘sad’ here is an understatement. But what other word can describe the feeling of sad more than ‘sad’ itself?

But I try not to be affected by it. Sadness… has become my friend. Sadness has become my other identity.

After all, I have been through the darkest tunnel and yet I’ve seen the light at the end of it everytime without fail. The only difference is that sometimes it takes a few days, sometimes a few months.

I wanted to blog in LJ, and so I entered the website. I was brought into hotspurs account instead. I couldn’t resist taking a peek at the entries. Though I remember you showing me once, I remember that I pretended not to care. But truth was that I was dying to know about your past.

It’s always been a taboo topic. At least for you. And it always makes me wonder – has he forgotten all his past, or is he reliving in it once in a while?

I talk about my past openly because it’s a sign that I’ve already moved on with life. Transitions. In life, we have several segments, and of course the transitions. Those segments and transitions are all history, at least for me.

I get very upset when you always squirm away from the topic. But I know that it’s because perhaps you can’t bear to hear the truth, or you can’t bear to tell the truth about your past too.

You once wrote this in your LJ :

i wan a gf that,
when i see her i will be happy
wans to hold my hand when we go out
gives me a feeling that she loves me
wans me to meet her family
doesnt say “we break lor” like 5 times every day
gives me a happy face when she sees me

Suddenly, I am not sure if I can be the girl. The usually confident Christina has now crumbled and is now uncertain.

You also wrote that you wanted this and that in a GF.

I am not sure if I can give them all to you. Freedom, time, stay faithful, fun…

There are several times when we got upset with each other, more frequently than not nowadays. And I am getting a little worried.

I have no idea what I am getting at.

I felt very jealous and sad when I read your entries. I only managed to skim through 3 pages before I decided that enough is enough.

You felt so much for SY and Mel. You nearly lost yourself when SY broke up with you, refused to get back, and when Mel also hinted that she didn’t feel for you.

Do you still feel as much for them now? Do you still live in your past now?

Perhaps the insecurity is acting up. Bleah.

I know my dear dear loves me the most. I know my dear dear wants to live the rest of his life with me.

I know dear dear will honour me till death do us part.

But, but… the little naughty side of me is thinking… IF we were to initiate a cool down period, or rather a break up, will dear dear be as hurt as last time? Will dear dear try to make me go back to him…

I hate this game suddenly. Love is just a game we all play with each other, isn’t it?

Sorry for the emo post.